Happy New Year- Well this is my first post of the new year so I'd like to wish everyone a Happy New Year. I know time is so precious but I have to say that I am SO VERY glad that 2005 is over. It was a very hard year for me emotionally with so many ups and downs in our adoption. Christmas with my family was wonderful, but it was also sad. A few months before Christmas 2004 John and I started our adoption journey and I was so sure that we would be sharing Christmas 2005 with our new child.
As we celebrated the birth of our savior this year, John and I also celebrated the birth and referral of our baby girl Isabella. My heart aches that I can not bring her home right now, and to know that I'm missing her first smiles, tears, and tiny milestones. Each day I'm torn between letting myself fall in love with her totally, or to play it safe in fear that something will happen to stop this adoption as well. I've grown so much emotionally this year and I've learned that when other adoptive parents warned me that this journey was not for the faint of heart, they certainly were not kidding.
We are starting to make progress though. Our dossier has reached our attorney in Guatemala (whose name is Roberto) and I'm assuming that by now he's started translating everything. We learned that we needed to re-do John's letter of employment from the navy to show his gross annual salary instead of his monthly salary. (Guess they can't multiply by 12 ..hehe). That of course has to go through the SC Sec of State's office and the consulate's office of Guatemala in Miami to get their seals applied to make it an official legal document. The new letter should reach our agency by Wed and hopefully Guatemala by the end of this week. Then our case can officially be submitted to Family Court in Guatemala. Then we just wait until the order for the DNA test is placed. After that John and I can go and meet our baby girl. :-)
I can not tell you how hard the waiting actually is. Each month that passes feels like a HUGE accomplishment for me and I want to celelbrate the first day of each new month. When I packed up my Christmas ornaments this year I left an angel ornament out that has a verse written on it. "Faith makes all things possible." That is what I'll be reminded of each day until our baby girl is home forever.
As we celebrated the birth of our savior this year, John and I also celebrated the birth and referral of our baby girl Isabella. My heart aches that I can not bring her home right now, and to know that I'm missing her first smiles, tears, and tiny milestones. Each day I'm torn between letting myself fall in love with her totally, or to play it safe in fear that something will happen to stop this adoption as well. I've grown so much emotionally this year and I've learned that when other adoptive parents warned me that this journey was not for the faint of heart, they certainly were not kidding.
We are starting to make progress though. Our dossier has reached our attorney in Guatemala (whose name is Roberto) and I'm assuming that by now he's started translating everything. We learned that we needed to re-do John's letter of employment from the navy to show his gross annual salary instead of his monthly salary. (Guess they can't multiply by 12 ..hehe). That of course has to go through the SC Sec of State's office and the consulate's office of Guatemala in Miami to get their seals applied to make it an official legal document. The new letter should reach our agency by Wed and hopefully Guatemala by the end of this week. Then our case can officially be submitted to Family Court in Guatemala. Then we just wait until the order for the DNA test is placed. After that John and I can go and meet our baby girl. :-)
I can not tell you how hard the waiting actually is. Each month that passes feels like a HUGE accomplishment for me and I want to celelbrate the first day of each new month. When I packed up my Christmas ornaments this year I left an angel ornament out that has a verse written on it. "Faith makes all things possible." That is what I'll be reminded of each day until our baby girl is home forever.
posted by Janine @ 1:26 AM
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